Lia, I feel your pain. Opioids are a devil's game. I too felt nothing when I took them. Incidentally, the book I wrote in that nothingness space was an epic fail.

This country has a ton of work to do to make amends for all the people stripped of their agency due to these painkillers.

Big fan of thc + cbd for pain now. No head fog or feeling like you never want to get out of bed. And I wonder sometimes if it works better for the pain because I don't feel the horrible backlash.